i LOVE comic strips, my favourites particularly being Dilbert and Calvin & Hobbes.

there's always something very unsettling about packing up to shift somewhere else. you step back and view your whole life - as if it has been quantified into 5 boxes and 3 pieces of luggage. not fun. and as my buddies leave Vassar one by one, heading home to a place where family and close friends wait for them, at times the thought of being alone resonates that much more strongly in your heart. indeed, home is where the heart is. it's where mine is, too. but somehow that has to wait a little more because there are things that God has intended for me to do.

life has slowed down significantly and i can breathe easy. this has been the hardest semester yet, and as for the grades... let's just not think about it because i can't do anything about them now - and it's all in the hands of the One who i know i can trust. but can i just say my parents are the cutest people around... i sent them an e-mail freaking out about physics:

"this is not a lame e-mail, i promise, but i'm going to have my physics final exam in a matter of an hour and a bit.
i have studied all day and all night and a bit in advance, and i make no lie that maybe i could have studied more/smarter.
but i also make no claim that i have ever been an excellent physicist, neither will i ever be.
right now i believe i have passed that class and that has only ever been my goal.
please pray that things will make sense to me because right now - my brain is stuffed and i give up on physics!
ROAR!"

and this is part of my mum's reply
"grace, at least u didn't say ' die ah ..... die aaaahhhh'... never mind , do yr best & get on (the worse that can happen is re sit the paper (the gd news is being in the US longer!!!)" - (you can see the sunshine just spilling forth, out of the e-mail... lol)

i've come to realise that all this time in my family, the main focus has never been on grades. sure you get the nagging and this one time in sec 4 when my report card read 5 Cs and 4 Bs (and an L1R5 of maybe 30 points), when i seriously disappointed them by playing too much. you know that from their perspective, it's definitely the process and not the outcome that matters. and even if you don't make it, it's not the end of the world. as for physics, it's the only subject that has put me on the brink of tears. twice. just from studying.

graduation is on sunday - SOB.