spoke to pee nute last night - i REALLY can't wait to get together with my 3 favourite people again: peenute,van,oink&grace. it's so sad how i seem to be the one constantly leaving - but this time they might be at the airport to pick me up! yay for early mornings. hahaha... it's going to be tricky - organizing my time for this trip. ah well.

in procrastinating actually beginning my lab report, i was skimming through a couple of blogs of people i know/knew. honestly, this culture is getting so depressed! think about it - haven't you read blogs where people rant and rail at the world and their dissatisfaction with it? the unfairness of it all, the sadness, the pressure, the misunderstandings the... everything?

where is the joy in life? it's getting so angsty and dark and i find people taking comfort in it.
but, isn't it lonely? not in the sense that you have lack of companionship or friends or family or a social life. but in the conscious preference in reclusing or isolating yourself in this culture of darkness and depression? i don't know about you, but i find this choice kind of dangerous and self-destructive. and the media isn't helping.

i mean, i try to empathize and sympathize with people who are going through difficult times - i don't claim to understand or relate to it all - the pain and the misery. but if you believe in God, you know this kind of mentality is not something He wants you to have if you only know what good things He has in store for you -
Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.
(Psalm 42:11)

and if you don't believe in my God, at least believe that there's always something better in store for you, than the shroud of darkness that you have encased yourself in.